I was in a different world ....

Being born in a brahmin family full of devout spiritual gurus, I always thought that I knew spirituality. Then I read books by Paramhansa Yogananda, Vivekananda, and in my own family knew some simple Bhakti Yogis, Which made me realise my ignorance. I had started this journey unknowingly in Childhood with books like Bhagwat Gita and Ramayana, but now I am knowingly trying to find my self enroute to spirituality. These are the pages of the impressions that I gathered in those searches.....
Sitting in the room of Sh Ramakrishna Paramhansa, I thought of the things that have had come to pass… thought of the things that I am going through.. what is this change that is happening..? Will it ever change me….? Or Am I already changed?
Om Namah Shivaya
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The sound keep melting in me
The sound of silence
The sound of conch
The sound of circulating group of devotees
Till it was no longer me
I swirled within the circle
Floated in the group
Went high
and then merged
in the overall consciousness of me
In the Universe
She took me in her arms
and went away to the stars
A long silver thread followed
From the manifestations
Of God
Which was lying down in the group
Of Singers singing your songs
I woke up in the dew
That was hanging at the grass blade
Till sun trampled on it
With his harsh rays
And I woke in your love
Lying still among the chants.
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Some thoughts are knocking in my head
I feel restless
And fatigued
Are you calling me from far?
Sit besides you
And Hold your hand?
Or are you going away?
Far from you
How further you can leave me
Away
It’s just that thought
That keeps coming back to me
Again and again
That is keeping you besides me
Why then this emptiness
That engulfs my soul
Is not at all empty of you
Do you want me to come back?
And hold you close to me again
Or do you want me to go away
And hold nothing against you
Then what is this my love
That keeps coming back to in thoughts
Scratch my world of emptiness
And draw out some bloodless soul
Om Namah Shivaya
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thought gives.. I have the grace of her so great that just by thinking about her gives me her presence so what more I can ask? But then I have this nagging fear that I may be going in wrong direction .. Am I Kali Ma? Why not you give me the direction to go, why not let me have the path which reaches you easily. Will I get that this time… ? But then I again I am filled with doubts what if you test me, give me another path that leads me into the forest of desires and fulfilling my Karma again. What if the path that I am going on is the right path as you have pointed me towards it years back? But Kali Ma, I also a child, asking from his mother, how to come to you.
Will you give me a circuitous path leading me away to began with or this time Ma, I will reach out to you?
Om Namah Shivaya
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The Sound of pain that lover’s presence relieves
Within me –
That burns in between my eyes
The Three lines on shiva linga
The force that flows in the
The figure of Lord Ganesha
To me
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metaphysics, it is proposed that the manifested cosmos (from Brahman) has name and form (nama-rupa), and that the closest approximation to the name and form of the universe is Aum, since all existence is fundamentally composed of vibration. This is considered by some to be remniscent of some current physical theories such as quantum physics and super string theory, which describe the universe in terms of vibrating fields or strings.
subsumed into the ultimate One, represented by the little crescent moon-shape and dot, known as chandrabindu. Essentially, upon moksha, mukti, samadhi, nirvana, liberation, etc. one is able not only to see or know existence for what it is, but to become it. In attaining truth one simply realizes fundamental unity; it is not the joining together of a prior manifold splitting. When one gains true knowledge, there is no split between knower and known: one becomes knowledge/consciousness itself. In essence, Aum is the signifier of the ultimate truth that all is one.
* Creation (Brahma)- Preservation (Vishnu)- Destruction (Shiva) into Brahman
* Waking- Dreaming- Dreamless Sleep into Turiya (transcendental fourth state of consciousness)
* Rajas (activity, heat, fire)- Tamas (dullness, ignorance, darkness)- Sattva (purity, light, serenity/shanti) into Brahman
* Body, Speech and Mind into Oneness
* Etc.
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The River that has the imagination of a country like
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/south_asia/1106050.stm)
the river that flows across the heart land of India, the River whose water never gets stagnant or stale even if you keep it for years together... that river has always stirred my feelings like a living image of Krishna or Shiva. Whenever I come across River Ganges on my various tours on work or on my meditation trips... I feel that I have just walked into presence of Lord Shiva whose abode the river comes down from and who has borne Her in His jata...
This time I came across the river while on the way to meet few of my relatives on the way to
After some time sitting by her banks, I found immense peace within and then slowly the Aarti started and after a long thoughtful mediation, I reluctantly left for my way back to
Har Har Gange
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